Night cycling.

32km is a damn fucking long way & it seems endless while riding on the bike. You felt like you're generating some kinda machine's gear, continuously. Afraid to stop, afraid to lose your momentum.
My butt was freaking aching as well as my thighs.

What the fuck is wrong with my fucked up bike, Why can't I move even faster when i tried to increase my paddling range to the point i can't feel that force to the wheels? I'm like stucked and fucking exhausted halfway through when others were all ahead of me. I concentrated on cycling fast at first. Then i came to realised that my wheels are smaller compared to the others. Due to my fucking itchy hands - I went to change a smaller bike before the ride, with smaller wheels means that i have to paddle twice as much as the others to travel the same distance. I am fucking retarded not to think of that! Besides that, my seat was so freaking low that my arms can hit my knees while cycling, which means that i have to exert even more force to cycle. I am fucking retarded again! I came to realise this when i was reaching the destination in the next 2km, then Jia En and Bryan, my savior adjusted my seat for me and i could finally cycle at ease but still a little strenuous.
Until i reached my destination, Xiao Yu said that the gear in my bike might have been adjusted till the 'tougher to ride' mode when i said that i had difficulties riding. FUCK MY LIFE MAN. I didn't know that there's this kinda stupid adjustment. I am so ignorant. Lol.

I hate cycling. I feel nauseous to just look at any fucking bike.
This was the second time in my life to feel so helpless. First was the abseiling @ Republic Poly with that fucked up female instructor who nearly took my life. CCB.

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Thanks darling for sending me home after everything. Love you!