It have been ages ever since i post on my true thoughts here.
It requires lots and lots of courage i have yet to pick up, in order to actually spill the beans.
So isn't this something really worth reading? Hahaha! Okay, I'm just kidding.

Let's get serious about this okay.

Regarding my friendship and relationship.
Oh my god.

Firstly, I hate to be stucked in between a decision over going out with my Love or my friends. I fucking hate it. Please don't ever ever drown me with questions like, which I'll prefer when you jolly well knew the answer.
If my friends refuse to respect my decision and whine, I have no promise that I will keep my cool. I repeat, the first person who asked me out will only be prioritized. However exceptional cases like an important and formal event or whatsoever should be prioritized, apparently.

Next, if you ever came to notice, I strongly disagree and avoid to go out with my Dear and my friends at the same time. The reason behind this is because I will be in dilemma again! I will be so freaking stucked in between as I really hope to split myself to entertain both sides. But it is impossible to cling both of them in my arms and walk leisurely around you see. The probablity of them getting really unreasonable or upset with me is exceptionally high. I am self-aware that I get distracted very easily by my Dear boy. Do you know my pain?

*sigh*
I guess in the meantime, only my Dear understand me the best.
No offense, i suppose so.

I love my Dear and my sisters.

The love for my Dear is undescribable as my passion and affection to him is so strong that I can't live without him. He is my lover and I love him forever.

The love for my sisters is more than a friend of course. Our sistership will last forever. Without supports and sharings from/with my sisters I can't live either.

But the love is different.